The jetta is totalled. I need a new car. Waitin for dudes insurance to call us.

Basically charles got rear ended. Why do we have such bad luck? We srsly can't catch a break.... at least we have insurance. But now charles does not have a way to get to work.

Ugh.

My baby is hiccuping inside me... So trippy.

i just leaked boob juice over the new shirt i put on


YAY.

I have a January 10th due date (brr!!!), and I am wondering about snow suits! Not that I am gonna throw him out in the snow and force him to make snow angels (lol). I would like to have one for bringing him home in, and taking him out. Anyone else here have/had a winter due date, and are curious about em? I want a semi poofy (not fleece) one, and one that zips up, with a hood, footies and no covers for the hands (I can put gloves or whatnot on him).

   Show me ideas! Looking to spend $20-35!

My nipples hurt.


I have a UTI.


I have to work 4 days this week.


Id rather not.

Need shower.

Items :

- Crib & Crib set
- More infant clothes
- Breast pump & Supplies
- Bottles, & supplies
- Baby diaper service
- Cloth diapers
- Money for Circumsicion
- Vibrating baby seat
- 2 more carseats
- Baby moniter
- Mobile
- Changing pad
- Picture frames
- Sunshade for car


To Do :

- Make Israels name plate for above crib
- Get desk out of room
- Put shelving up
- Wash Playard
- Get basinette from Amanda, wash basinette
- Wash clothes, excersaucer
- Disenfect cars
- Install said car seats
- Clean/de-clutter bathroom/bedroom top to bottom
- Pack hospital bag and diaper bag

I have been feeling my child kick me from the inside for about a week now.


Fucking weird.

I had to give my kitty cat , Roger, away today. He was a scared little one. Dogs always chased him... :[ But he is in a better place now, in a barn! With room to roam around and catch mice instead of being stuck inside.

Ill be in Vancouver tomorrow night. Finally.

So one of my good friends had his wisdom teeth pulled a while back. He does not have a car so he is bus bound. He had gauze in his mouth, and was slightly bleeding when he was waiting for the bus. Someone ended up calling the cops saying "Theres a rabid crazy man waiting for the bus!". He ended up going to the psych hospital for over a week, because they did not believe him. His guns were taken away, and he owes a shit ton of money to a hospital....

I had a dream last night. In present time, we were moving, like now, had boxes all over, like now. Mom rolls up to our apartment in Boulder, in a HUGE RV. Says "I bought this for your cousin and his kids!". I say, "Damn, that would have been PERFECT for us, could take everything we owned, tow our car, everything!". We go inside and theres a weird folding table that I take apart and cant put back together (meaning, my life is weird and I cant put the pieces together???). I say "Mom, why didnt you buy this for us? It would be awesome..." She says "You really dont need it, your cousin and his children need it more". I havent seen my cousin or his kids in over a year, and they are NOT poor. She goes off and checks her bank balance on her phone, I hear "You have... three million dollars and blah blah blah cents". I FLIP out, literally go bonkers, saying "Wow you are such a horrible person, you know we have to leave everything behind and come back to Washington with absolutely NOTHING!".

Dream fades out into different dream.


Wow I love pregnancy.

So my flight is on the 25th, I will be there at like 8 pm. I am probably going to sleep when I get there, since Im tired all the time. On the 26th I will be having a get together at my mothers house, if you want the address just leave me a note here. The 26th is a Sunday. YES, the 26th of July. NO, I cant drink, NO I cant smoke, NO I cant smoke pot. But whateva man, it would be great to see all of you.

So proud. Ill be back in Vancouver on July 26th. Harry Potter comes out the 15th. My bday is the 18th. Life is good. Got some stuff packed, I will be flying, boys will be driving with the dogs. Blah blah blah. I love/hate being pregnant. I get so much attention from charles but Im so tired ALL the time.






add me on myspace or something.

Made it to 12 weeks! 2nd trimester, Yaaaaaaaayyy! Celebrating w/ chinese food :)
( Belly )

Made the mistake of thinking ask_me_anything was ANYTHING like this community. A gal asked if she should bake cookies for a homeless man, and I replied, "Does he have teeth? Can he even eat the cookies?"... Oops ;)

WHY


WHY THE FUCK US. WHY THE FUCK DOES IT HAPPEN EVERY MONTH, OR EVERY WEEK. WHY DOES LIFE KICK US IN THE SHINS EVERY FUCKING TIME SOMETHING IS LOOKING UP. WHY THE FUCK CANT ANYTHING GO RIGHT


first charles loses his job


then he goes to court FOR A FUCKING TRAFFIC TICKET AND HE COMES HOME WITH AN ankle moniter


my fucking god i have to get out of here


i just made a whole plate of food and i cant eat it now because im sick to my stomach


WHY DO SOME PEOPLE MAKE 30 MILLION DOLLARS A YEAR


AND WERE STUCK HERE

FUCKING STUCK


so fucking depressed

Can anyone make an icon for me out of an ultrasound pic? Ill love you forever and ever!
Here they are for your enjoyment, of course. Heartbeat is normal, so is size.

( Baby, baby , baby! )

I have finally quit smoking, after 9 weeks! I had been smoking since I was 13, and Im done! So proud of myself. It has been a struggle, much harder than I thought it would be. My fiance is almost done, hes down to chewing or eating hard candies to suppress it. I am very proud of him too.

I actually had my first wave of morning sickness (I think??) today. I think I woke up wayyy too early, and then went job hunting. I just felt SO headachey (which I still do) and vomit-ey. I had to go home and when I got there expelled my muffin :[ I didnt think it would ever catch up to me, but apparently it has. I dunno if it will stick around, hoping not! Because this is baaaad! I hope I can kick this almost-headache feeling soon too, because having a headache makes me feel ill, as well.

I need to go lay down for a bit, the position the computer is in is NOT conducive to my condition haha. I cant wait for my first ultra sound, although fiance will be out of town (BOO!!! :[). I will bring my cell phone and record it, and hopefully I will get a pic of the scan!

i didnt 'just realize' this but its hitting home, seeing how im getting farther along in my pregnancy. charles wont be here for the last 3 months of my pregnancy, and maybe not even here for the birth. he wont be here for the first year, and i dont know beyond that. but its really depressing. im not gonna NOT think about it.

but he is joining about 40-50 days after we get back to vancouver. by the time im in vancouver i will be... about 20 weeks, so 20 weeks + 50 days = 27 weeks, so yeah i highly doubt that hes gonna be here for the birth.

wow.



sad.

i have to find a job today or were living in a car.